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Sunday, July 16, 2006

"I watched her glide along the gallery..." ~ Jane Eyre

*the mini-vacation continues...*

I could sit here all day.

I probably shall.

I feel like a summer cliche; its wonderful.

There is a covered glider in my yard, with room enough for two. I glide back and forth , feeling cool in the shade as a breeze sweeps across the yard. I am sipping raspberry lemonade in a large glass with huge pieces of ice. Jonathan Schwartz is on NPR and jazz vocalists are singing about the sadness of a Sunday morning.

I can relate to those songs.

There are black-eyed susans everywhere in the yard. These flowers are special not only because they are pretty, but because they are a precursor to next month's arrival of sunflowers.

Not a cloud is in the sky today, and although I contemplated going back to the beach, I am much happier spending the day in my backyard retreat, meditating and unwinding. The New York Times is sprawled out on the white patio table. For a few hours, the front pages are placed beneath all of the other sections; they are ever-present, but for a few hours I push them to the back of my thoughts. Instead, the Travel section is opened to a feature on San Sebastian.

On occasion I slip back into my apartment to check messages, plan out dinner for the evening, refill my lemonade, and splash my face with cold water.

Sinatra finally comes on the airwaves to croon to me. One for my baby. I place my head back and close my eyes. If I was told I had to choose one voice to listen to for the rest of my life, it would be Frank's.

Schwartz than plays a set of differing versions of Taking a Chance on Love. I begin to think about how nice it would be having someone sit next to me right now on this glider, opening up a bottle of Pindar Summer Blush and sipping away an afternoon in sweet silence. A wave of sorrow comes in with the light breezes.

I then recall the true reason why I am out here. It is to give myself a beautiful day; just myself. I am retreating and relaxing because I am exhausted from all aspects of relationships and dating over the past few years. Wrung out of late, I have just begun to feel rejuvenated today and refreshed, taking a well-deserved break. No chance taking right now; I prefer the security within myself. The sorrow glides away as quickly as it glided in.

So, I then slide right smack into the middle of the glider, taking up all of the room for myself and leaving none for anyone else. A big smile is on my face.

I could sit here all day.

I probably shall.

21 Comments:

Blogger K9 said...

/bark bark bark

dear lady jane: the perfect companion as you well know is a rottie. i am a sunflower! ask vanille.
i never talk over Frank and i dont step on the NYT. well, yeah i do, but NEVER the arts pages. and i take a frosty paws with a moist eye of gratitude.

a lady i adored often quoted (some actress) who said:

it takes a hell of a man to be better than no man.

dogs however, are a requirement for health and well being. you know it! enjoy the evening lady jane...

/grrrr

10:49 PM  
Blogger ThursdayNext said...

K9 ~ Yes, indeed a rottie is the perfect companion, especially one that does not bark over Frank or does not chew up the Times! (Though I have a few friends who would love nothing more than a fresh NYT be chewed to shreds) Moreover, ones that can quote an excellent adage is certainly perfection! Thank you for your kind words, sweet puppy. You make me miss my Cleo so very much.

11:09 PM  
Blogger schaumi said...

Yes, sometimes privacy, security and peace within are more important than companionship ... but it's a balancing act.
You're doing what I've been wanting to do for yeeears. Get away all by myself..

11:14 PM  
Blogger Lady Wordsmith said...

Good evening.

If I may intrude upon what looks to be a most pleasant holiday for your, smiling so on your glider, I would like to introduce myself. My name is Lady. Lady Wordsmith actually. (So, yes. I am a ‘wordsmith woman’.)

I wanted to thank you. It’s always flattering to learn someone speaks of you as having ‘damn cool writing’ and a ‘kickass blog’. Frankly, it’s a damn fine kickass good feeling.

But for such flattery to come from you? It pales me (Cue background music - Procol Harum’s ‘Whiter Shade of Pale’). Your words are both delicate and powerful. I read how you spoke of “a wave of sorrow comes in with the light breezes” and I saw the ceiling fly away. The truth of your words throughout your blog is easy to see and quick to bring us all home. No easy task.

You are a woman of many names and am happy to note two of them honor one of my most beloveds. I hope any peculiarities of our first meeting will not preclude us from becoming better acquaintance.

Kindly yours,
~Lady

12:10 AM  
Blogger Marty said...

You have a glider?
I'm jealous.
My favorite place to sit and just 'be' is on my parents' deck, surrounded by blue mountains and any animal you can think of (we're country!), and complete silence, except for the sounds of nature. My grandmother had a glider on her porch that I loved to sit in as a child. Your post reminded me of that. So thanks!

7:58 AM  
Blogger ThursdayNext said...

Schaumi ~ You are right, it is all about balance. I guess I feel that one side has been so top heavy lately, that going back to the other will just even things out in the end. So glad you visited here; your blog is a pleasure to read.

Miss Martypants ~ I think that Thoreau would love both of us! Are there any Thoreau action figure dolls, you think? Wouldnt it be so cool to have figures of authors from all different schools of thought and wage a battle? Did I ever tell you that I love knowing you are a sick literary freak like moi? ;) As for being country, I feel like I could use just a lil' bit more of that here in suburbia sometimes!

Lady W ~ I am flattered you came to visit! Just like you, I recently stumbled upon the epic of Percy, Cora, Cosmo, Puppy, and Lee. It is rather amusing and quite fun! As for your kind words about my blog, I thank you so very much. I am looking forward to reading more of your words, Lady W. Cheers!

8:32 AM  
Blogger work in progress said...

"So, I then slide right smack into the middle of the glider, taking up all of the room for myself and leaving none for anyone else. A big smile is on my face."

Thursday! I LOVE that line! Good.For.You. When you are ready, you will share your glider, until then, be content with yourself. You're enough woman (and I mean this FIGURATIVELY) to fill that glider all by yourself.

BTW, I'm more relaxed after reading your post. Kinda like I'm in the yard with you...waiting for sunflowers. THAT'S good writing.

8:38 AM  
Blogger work in progress said...

Oh, and I wanted to mention that The Amazing Guy and I watched 'High Society' the other night.

Have you seen this?

Mr. Sinatra made his entrance, and I was struck (once again) by how strong his presence was. So, I asked Mr. Amazing, "Did Frank Sinatra get a lot of action (wink,wink,nudge,nudge)?"

He laughed, and said "YEAH!"

I responded, "I can understand WHY!" I was all worked up! ;-)

8:41 AM  
Blogger Connie said...

Dating is hell. You sound so positive about the way you are dealing with it. Good work. Good work.

9:23 AM  
Blogger Night Flier said...

Sounds like the perfect Sunday afternoon in the summer! I love those old covered gliders. A little lemonade and some jazz what else could you desire? A man, oh yes, that would be nice. However, sometimes solitude is needed for a short time. They tell me if I stop looking for it, love will just fall in my lap. Maybe you'll be proof of this theory. In the meantime, stretch out on that glider and enjoy!

9:56 AM  
Blogger Barry said...

Clouds? I haven't seen one of those since I was in Texas!!!

Sorry, I don't wax as poetice as the other commenters.

11:34 AM  
Blogger Marty said...

Thursday:
'sick literary freak?'

Damned straight, sister! :)
I ALMOST mentioned Thoreau..he's Dad's favorite writer; Dad says he will build a house in the woods and live as Thoreau did. We say, "But you can't have Mom's great cooking in the woods!"
(smiles)
But seriously, I need to somehow get you to their house. You'd love it, if you love nature.

As to the action figures?
I'm writing in to request Dickinson, Bronte, and others.
David wants them to fight evil, you want them to wage a battle. I'll get to work on that scenario. ;)

12:29 PM  
Blogger afromabq said...

i felt relaxed just reading your post. i love my alone time, in my back yard, swinging on my swing, reading a book. it's these times that i actually enjoy my "singlehood."

12:51 PM  
Blogger beachgirl said...

TN- your imagery is amazing... I felt like I was there intruding on your amazing day...

12:55 PM  
Blogger Steph said...

What a great day. Good for you for loving yourself and taking the time to rejuvinate.

2:03 PM  
Blogger Clearlykels said...

Now, that is a wonderful day for you. I want to take one of those some day soon. I am glad you took up the whole glider. That is how it is supposed to be.

10:55 AM  
Blogger Percival said...

"Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eye, and I
Won't be surprised if it's a dream.

Everything I want the world to be
Is now comin' true especially for me
And the reason is clear, it's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven
That I've seen..."

- Karen Carpenter, Top of the World

12:01 PM  
Blogger David said...

You know what makes me happy? Ella Fitzgerald singing "How High the Moon."

Oh, and your blog.

Put 'em together? Oh, man. Now, you see, my true dilemma is that if you weren't you, I'd recommend your blog to you. But you are you, so you've already read it. Ya got me? ;)

1:44 PM  
Blogger ThursdayNext said...

WIP ~ Oh I love High Society! Indeed, Frank was quite a catch in his heyday! Ever see On the Town? :)

Auto ~ You always have the must succinct of good advice and support; gracias!

Vix ~ I hope you are right. Thank you for your wise words!

Barry ~ I hope you are home soon so you can view clouds that have all kinds of shapes. :)

Marty ~ Oh the scenario is looking good! I love your lastest post.

PS ~ I am glad that you are enjoying singlehood, too. :)

BG ~ Ah, I wish you were up here partying in NYC, Miss. That would be quite a welcome intrusion!

Steph ~ Thank you ever so much!

Kels ~ I hope you are enjoying the new place and taking up all the space, too!

Percy ~ Not sure if I was on top of the world, but I was certainly very happy just to be sitting on it that afternoon! :)

David ~ Your words always make my day, you know that? Both the kind words you leave me here and the subjects on your blog.

6:03 PM  
Blogger J Cosmo Newbery said...

Sounds most inviting. A beach and a glass of wine; ideal companions.

7:36 PM  
Blogger ThursdayNext said...

Cosmo ~ Indeed, especially a pinot grigio with a nice pineapple aroma!

6:58 AM  

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